Willow’s Rest Café (Part 3.1)

Willows Rest Blank

Saturday 18 December 2010, 6:00 am

So, what’s on your list of questions for today?

There is no list today, but I would like to pick up where we left off last week. Topics which seem to create a reaction in you.

Which are?

What do you believe are the things we talked about which created a reaction?

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In a positive or negative way?

Both, I would like you to begin with whichever makes you least uncomfortable.

These interviews seem to be of a genuine interest and you did not push the topic of Bridgeport, which led me to believe this is all unrelated to my father.

Are those positive or negative things?

They are not negative.

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In other words, things that are of honest curiosity and intent, are those things you do not associate with your father?

That is correct, yes.

Tell me about things which create a negative reaction in you.

Bridgeport, Roger and Josephine.

Bridgeport is a place you associate with both your parents?

It is, yes.

Last week, you mentioned that not a day goes by when you don’t think of Bridgeport.

That is accurate.

How often do you visit?

I don’t.

When is the last time you were there?

About one decade in the past.

So, the place where you were born, you don’t visit at all, but you think of it daily?

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When, you put it that way, yes.

Who, from your family remains in Bridgeport?

Josephine is buried there. Hank looks after the house where I was raised and as I said last week, Roger disappeared the instant Josephine passed. He is no longer in Bridgeport.

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If you were to put into words what Bridgeport means to you, what would it sound like?

Bridgeport holds everything I ever learned about building a connection: abandonment, which is also to say the reason I don’t wander into the lives of the women I meet. There is a lot I don’t know about what happened in Bridgeport and how Josephine died. It all lurks in my mind and wandering in Monte Vista was supposed to be a temporary solution. At least, until I was ready to return. It has been almost one decade. I have grown comfortable and alone.

Is that to say you correlate comfort with being alone?

I suppose I do, yes…

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6:45 am

well, so, the sun is about to rise.

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He pauses and becomes silent as he faces the ocean.

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He has a smile on his face, as if the time it takes for the sun to rise is also the time when he experiences peace.

What is it about the sunrise you enjoy most?

Nothing prevents the sun from rising.

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[Everything about this conversation reminded me of how the Mourning dove yearns to build a connection, so much so that it created a specific sound, a song, to attract a mate. Trent is what happens when a dove never inherits such trait.]

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Orphan Song

Where do you want me to go?
Those words wait for me everywhere…
After all the nights of rest,
after all the laughs and tears
that have slipped away,
after all I hate, all I admire
in this chain of change,
comes the strange refrain
that drives me to despair.

Is it you, my father? You boast
that all those charming women
in your life loved you too much.
Is this my mother, singing
in her wretched grave?

—Rainer Maria Rilke

 

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2 thoughts on “Willow’s Rest Café (Part 3.1)

  1. The more I read the more I ask myself if l’ndifferant meaning applies to Trent? How can he be indifferen when his mind so full of… everything is? Maybe he would like to feel no more, but he still suffers, he still can feel so much pain and fears… what is good then, it would be too late when he could feel no more pain.
    But maybe I got it wrong. I think I must read the Rilke poems again and after that I’ll tell you if I still think the same.

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  2. It is a challenge to explain the part about L’indifférent only based on the Willow’s Rest interviews, mainly because Rilke’s poem was based on a painting by Jean-Antoine Watteau https://www.google.com/search?q=L%27indiff%C3%A9rent+Watteau&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwj66Oi8uJzPAhUCVyYKHUZjCcQQ_AUICCgB&biw=1600&bih=777 (of the same name). Rilke interpreted the painting to represent balance. The figure is of a well-dressed man (which Trent associates with his father). The term l’indifférent is not necessarily meant to represent indifference, although there are aspects of the characters in the series (namely Trent’s father) who very much give the appearance of indifference. The Willow’s Rest, does not necessarily address this aspect of the series. It would probably make a lot more sense combined with watching the series itself. But I do like to warn people, the videos are very long (30-40 mins) and unfortunately are not available for viewing in all countries. I know someone in Germany who mentioned my videos are blocked there. I someday hope to upload modified videos without the music, so that they are available everywhere, but unless there is such a request, I may not get around to doing it. If you are interested in the series here is a link which has a brief summary of all episodes as well as link to each of the videos. http://jepensedoncjesims.tumblr.com/post/103845237719/lindiff%C3%A9rent-series-update-summary-of-episodes

    To answer part of your question, Trent does feel, very much. He just does not share what he feels, which is part of the challenge and his journey to open up to people, but he also understands he will not be able to do that until he confronts the past, namely his father, who he has avoided for almost one decade. In the series, there is something that pushes him into action, a woman who he actually finds himself interested in…but he does not handle that situation in the best way.

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